This blog is special for my best besties------LYSA.
15 Feb 2011.
This is the date which both of us separate. The night before, I was spending a Sebauh Tour ride with you, just to refresh my memory so that I could bring it to New Zealand. When you drop me down in front my house, and hug me, that feeling was horrible! I could feel that the time was stop for few second just for you and me. I was so touch, but I hold my tears, turn around and walk home immediately. Just to not let u see how sad I am for leaving everything there and all alone here. I was having a mix feeling that I could not express it by words. Everything was so hard , so heavy and so new for me. It was totally a new life, new people and I need new friend! I just need some time to adjust myself well here. I feel that being away from home is scary, new, independence, demanding, challenging, difficult, sad, empty and lost!=((
The next morning, when u text me and tell me that coming over my place to drop me a last visit, then, I told u that its okay, u don’t have to come over my place again, there is nothing much to say, and I am pretty sure that, if u pop out in front of me that morning I probably will drop my tears. Yet, you really pop out in front of me, hug me and told me that “YOU CAN DO IT!”.. That moment, my heart popping in and out so fast so fast! My tears are around my eyes, and I keep telling myself, not to drop a tear in front of you, and I just want leaving with a smile. J At the end, I still can’t hold my tears and I cry all the way long from Sebauh until I reach Niah.
16 Feb 2011
This is the day which my first step began. When I reach Brunei Airport, my heart is really dying, I really hope that the time will just stop like that, and I don’t need to fly alone. I know I am so stupid to have that idea, but, that was what I really wish for. At the moment I entering the boarding gate, once again I cannot control my tears – I CRY. L Once again, i cry for no reason! I keep wipe away my tears, but it never stop. I told myself that, it’s time for me grow up and I need to be strong, don’t cry but be happy as I was fighting for my future. It's my destiny!
Guess what, did you know that who sitting beside me on the plane? Just like what u said before, it is a good looking guy but not leng zai. Hahahah… Too bad that we dint speak a word in the plane. This is because he sits at the one corner and I was at the other corner which means that there is one empty place between us! However, when I safely reach Auckland Airport at 2am(NZ time), he comes approach me, sits beside me, and finally we talk! Haha. We just have a nice talk while he was waiting for his friend to pick him up and I was waiting for my domestic transfer. J Thank you for your wish as it really comes true and at least I am not that lonely!
17 Feb 2011
Times goes second by second, and finally I reach Dunedin. I was so lucky that once I step out the arrival gates I see a guy holding a big board with my name on it! Someone is waiting for me and pick me up! Thanks god! Once I reach my college, I was stuck for few second, look around, and everyone is so strange for me. They are S-T-R-A-N-G-E-R! That moment, how I wish u was here together with me, just like what we did during our first time at Sunway Condo! Oh My Gosh, can u be here for me?! I could appreciate that! L
Lysa,
I don’t know what word should I use to show how much I missing you now. I really really really do! Recall back the sweet moment and the stupid thing that we do during our Sunway life….. First, we check in our room (23floor), then we set up our internet together, walk around the condo and college just to make sure we won’t get lost in the next morning for class (see..How stupid we are), we have dinner together at the condo café, (we will go to convenient store to get some milk or ice-cream, then sit down at pool side chatting, tan tan xin shi) hahahah…. we do swim together, go buy burger at the midnight, have watermelon juice, and sometimes we even walk to college just to have a cup of Ice Milo/ Nescafe! HahhaJ… we do some shopping at Pyramid during weekends, the horrible one for u is buy rice and vege! And you really do the enjoy some movies.
See… how great that is, I have a colourful life with u – only u and me! But now, no more! NO MORE! I did everything alone. Eating alone, discover the campus map alone, walking around the town alone, EVERYTHING IS ALONE!!! That is so lonely! Seriously, I miss you! I wish u can pop out in front of me now! (U know some magic right?)
I strongly believe that, when u see this blog, u were at Curtin already. Actually I was planning to let u see it once I reach Nz, but too bad that, there is still no internet connection for me to post this. I believe that, u will have the same feeling as me when u was at Curtin. You will definitely miss me too! Everything is new for you, don’t worry ok, together we learn it. Just give yourself some time, and I am pretty sure u will get use with it soon. Hereby, I wish you luck and all the best. My best wishes for you. Please take care yourself, don’t fall sick ok?! You are just too weak! Hahaha:P So, drink more water and eat more fruits. Don’t until u get sick, and u just drink more water and more fruits and u will say “ ying gai hai lai de ji ba~~” . Please don’t do that anymore.
IMPORTANT NOTES:-
1. Take good care of yourself.
2. Bring more money when you shopping (No more “Bank” for u this time)
3. Go and buy some fruit (I know u lazy to eat it, but u MUST)
4. Must eat 3 meals a day –Breakfast, lunch, dinner (I know u will skip it if u lazy cook or too focus on movies)
5. Don’t watch movie until late midnight (Or else no body morning call u this time)
6. Be brave. You must be BRAVE! Especially with that soft, green, cold thingy! (u know what I mean)
7. Put more smile on your face and talk politely (Don’t until u say it then u just realize you hurt them)
And please feel free to update me your things and if u have any “xin shi” always come and find me ya! I will waiting for ur “good news”! (BBGG) [comes the new one] J Hahaha.
Different country, different time....
Different people, different food.....
The only sameness is ME!
I can take off my bag...
I can take off my mood....
I can take off my fear....
But I can't take off my homesickness!
I can get brave....
I can get sense....
I can get friends....
But I can't get a hug from HOME!
I have to get over my homesickness...
Because it's my DESTINY!
That all from me.....Sincerely truely from my heart! And specially done it for YOU...ONLY YOU!
Wish you all the best my bestiest! Together we move for it!
Keep in touch ya!
Please ring me up when u miss me!
